沒有絕對

絕對......I have always liked the song. I had always believed in what it said....that your friends can walk away from you.....that the person you love can walk away from you.....but no matter what happens, there will always be two people that will always stand by your side.

But it's not true.

I sat here staring at the empty closet both last night and today, after she'd thrown my clothes into a suitcase. There was a pain in my chest that I cannot describe. Never felt so hurt by my own folks. All I could think was......why am I here?

You say I'm guilty. Perhaps I am. You say you've always been suspicious since years ago....even before I even had the knowledge to even remotely think about this. If you've always guessed or known, then why the big reaction? You knew it would happen. And you said it yourself....you cannot change it....there can always be person B, C, D.....who knows.

You say I have hurt you. You say I have ruined your life and this family. Perhaps it is my fault. If so, then I'm sorry. But how can I change what I feel? And have you ever considered how I feel in all of this? If you would just loosen up, then there wouldn't be a problem. And do not condemn me for something that is not true. I am angry....I am upset....but I have never hated anyone.